I told myself I wouldn't download enough to go over my limit this month and yet here I am, having tripped over the limit torrenting something last night, facing the prospect of being shaped to 64k for 11 days. Sigh.

♥ My hair has faded to a lighter reddish brown already but I think it suits me. Not too harsh for my ridiculously pale skin tone.

♦ Went out into the cold on Friday night to hang out with zanbam and reburta. As soon as we got into the first bar of the night we were hit on by a nigh incomprehensible drunk Irishman. There weren't many people out on the town, though. Must be because of the weather.

I met up with telcontar and geekinstinct today. We were going to go to the museum but, uh, stuff happened, so we went into the city to have lunch and look in nerd shops instead. Minotaur didn't have the volume of X-Factor I want in soft-cover, even though they have later volumes in TPB and the guy didn't even offer to order it for me (I mean, I could have asked but the people that work at that store generally act like they're not going to put effort into getting you to part with your money, so why should I bother when I can just go to a decent comics store in Chapel St instead?).

♠ I am sunburnt. Serves me right for thinking I could go without sunscreen for once.

♣ I was feeling nostalgic about bad 90's comics (because I grew up on those and I love them) so I downloaded a bunch. I had never read the X-Force '99 Annual before and it was going well enough until it got to them riding on logs and then I was just like 'what? what? how does that--? just what?' I was actually so confounded by the random cracktasticness of that that I actually voiced my confusion out loud.

Also, looking at early X-Force issues (why am I reading this? why can't I look away?) Liefeld was pretty fond of randomly giving the female characters O-face. Oh god, the pain, that on top of the anatomical wtf-ery.

* Sometimes I hear people talking about how vampires are so not hot because nobody that pale is attractive and I feel like yelling, "Hello! I am standing right here."

* I can't wait for the next Fast and the Furious movie. Original cast, hell yeah! It promises to be so gay. I will also have to see the Wolverine movie when it comes out even though I am indifferent to Wolverine because I saw the trailer with Gambit in it and lsdhfadsj Gambit so hot I want him in me

I do not, however, want to see the Star Trek movie no matter how cool the special effects look. It looks like a boring white male power fantasy that takes itself too seriously and completely lacking in funny. :\ Also, everyone looks too skinny.

* I hate being ignored more than pretty much anything else.

* On Friday Carl was saying how that morning his boyfriend had, without prompting, made him a sandwich to take for lunch and tucked some aspirin into his lunchbox. I said that as I always thought, there are thoughtful men out there but they're gay, hee.

* Recent fooding: ( Read more... )

* Edited I am back down to 51kg and I can see every bone in my chest move when I take off my shirt ew ew. Also, don't get why everyone wants to get skinny when your boobs shrink. I swear, I used to have a decent rack and now I have almost nothing.

One horoscope for today said I should go out and party. Another said giving up on something today would bring me relief. I gotta say, at 9.30 giving up on the idea there was any partying for me to have and heading home felt good.

• It was 46 yesterday! I went to Melbourne Central at 10am and didn't leave until the heat broke at 6pm. Even inside the shrine to air-conditioning I was sweating. What a great country this is; floods, drought, half my state on fire. I'm a mushy, emotional type and what with all the stuff I've been refusing to deal with lately, watching the news about the bush fires last night just set me off and I actually started crying. Ugh. That was probably also because I was exhausted, though. Well, okay, the loss of hundreds of homes and the deaths of at least 25 people is worth getting upset about.

Still, today is a beautiful rainy day and y'all know how I love rain.

• Another weekend on my own and, wow, do I ever need to grow myself a social life. Of course, I keep saying this and keep failing to make any new friends. I wouldn't be so ronery ;_; if I wasn't currently living alone, I should think. The good thing when I was living with Tim and Emma was that she was almost always home, and she was really nice, so I always had someone to talk to and have a cup of tea with. I miss that. (--Also, the time that Tim interrogated Ming was hilarious.)

Fucking dying to go clubbing. It's been far too long since I danced like a hooker to shitty pop music.

• I've been trying to put on weight but instead I've lost more weight. 51kg (113 pounds), not happy. Technically this is a healthy weight and whatever but my face looks so sharp and I'm sick of seeing and feeling my bones move under my skin. Also, I miss having decent boobs. :/

Have been trying to comfort myself with food. Am back to eating a carton of ice cream per week (fuck this healthy living shit, trying that made me feel like crap) and today I've gorged myself at Pancake Parlour and McDonalds.

• Keep thinking I see people I know while out and about, then wondering if I'm just hallucinating because I only see them for half a second.

Culinary successes:( Read more... )

Meme pinched from wrangler:( Read more... )

So, when the lease runs out the landlord wants to move back in. This is in about 9 weeks! Oh, life. So not looking forward to looking for a place again. Such a hassle.

So bloated. No wonder I am putting on weight again. Feel like I will turn into a whale.

Haha god why my hair is this mustardy yellowy brown. Sexy.

I was going to do French study and test prep things yesterday, really, but then I met up with zanbam instead and had fun. I much prefer fun, though I know I can't afford it.

When I was in City Library all the books about returning to uni as a mature age student seemed to assume one would have a long term romantic partner and that's kind of useless to me.

My french... well, I can say "Ma voiture est plus vieille que ta voiture" which is pretty much useless to me given that I don't have a car. I'm pretty useless with everything else.

Got a postcard from the parental units. They're having fun in China.

And now I think I'll go beg work to give me hours so that I can eat.

Went over to visit the family and spent most of today with my Aunty Lyn and my cousin Kate, and got to see Dan and Uncle Mick briefly, which was nice. Lyn, Kate and I went shoe shopping but failed to buy anything and we had coffee and talked about things, Lyn told me how their trip to China was and I gave her the trinkets I got them in Japan. All told, a nice day, if bloody cold.

Cannot stay with them while looking for a place as someone is staying in the spare room at the moment. Mostly looking at places in Richmond at the moment, because I'm sick of looking at dumps in East St Kilda I would have to share with junkies.

Oh, also, saw a really cute guy on the tram back to the city this afternoon and he may or may not have been looking at me, too, and we even got off at the same stop but then I was too shy to say anything to him and just rushed off. Not sure what I would have said, anyway, "hi, you have a pretty mouth"?

• My fic is still not behaving! Nonetheless, here is a Koyama/Tegoshi ficlet. It's a little clumsy but I wrote it with ♥

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• I meant to write something for Pi's birthday but kind of failed. ;_;

• Pretty ballsy of Rudd, I gotta say, speaking up like that to one of our major trading partners. Also, kind of cool. Yahoo! Aus front page tells me that KD Lang thinks he's awesome, now.

• I am so terrible at keeping up with birthdays but belated happy birthday to musikologie, jedinic and, lastly, violetsquirrel for yesterday. Miki, now you can drink in Japan! I expect you to buy me booze in celebration of this. ;p

• The temp job I did earlier in the week was lovely. The women at the office were really nice and laid back and it reminded me how much I like being around older women. Plus, the work was easy. It was nice to sort of reset myself. Spending time on the internet seeing too many pictures of Morning Musume and Lily Cole can lead to one's ideas of how old one should look getting really fucked up.

- Wanted to go to Alliance Francaise Open Day but I thought it was sunday... and didn't realise it was on saturday until it was over. Critical fail.

- Got let off work three hours early on Friday as there was no work.

- Friday night, met asinful in the city. She's thin and gorgeous and don't let her tell you otherwise.

We went to Crown and looked around, tramped up and down Southbank looking for a place to eat that wasn't expensive. After that we went back into the city and had coffee; a guy in a schoolgirl uniform walked past the cafe three times. Then we went to this nice little restaurant/bar in Melbourne Central that we didn't know was there until just before we went into it. For a place with so many spirits it was odd that it didn't have cocktail glasses. Anyway, it was nice, I would go there again.

I think by that point the most sense-making things we were saying was when we called Johnny's 'Japan's basement of crack'. I say really dumb stuff when I'm tired.

- Saturday, I joined the library finally. Whee~! Books just waiting for me to read them! :D

Also, met wintersjuly in the afternoon for some shopping. Even though my feet were sore from walking so much the night before I still foolishly wore my wedges and as I got more tired my feet hurt more and I wobbled a bit a few times. Luckily I had flats in my bag - we had to find a place selling a bag so I had something to carry my shoes in on the way home. ETA - when we were in JayJays we wanted to buy t-shirts in Tego's honour, but they looked terrible on us because we're not tiny, cute Japanese men.

*****

I watched Yuukan Club episode 8. One of my favourite things about this show is how absolutely none of them look high school age. This episode was so stupid. So stupid. ( Read more... ) I look forward to next episode's excuses for silly costumes.

I also watched episode 4 of Tatta Hitotsu no Koi. It was awfully nice. This show is quite charming, if sometimes a little awkward.

*****

I've seen images from the Matsuura Aya 2008 calendar and, ooh, I approve, so gorgeous. But this causes a dilemma because now I'm even more unsure which calendar I need to get for next year. Why must I have so many interests?

And on that note, completely random picspam: ( Read more... )

Linkspam, because I am a truly boring individual:

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* I feel queasy.

* I wrote just over 3,000 words of fic in November. Not sure whether to count that as a plus or not. I mean, at least I wrote that much, which is more than I can say for some months over the last few years. On the other hand, there are lots of people who can write ten times that in a month.

* The longer I stay with relatives, the less I feel like a real person. I really do miss paying my own bills, cooking my own meals, not worrying about what time I got home and so forth.

Spent half of lunch yesterday walking all over the city trying to find the Medicare office. Once I was in then the whole thing was done in less than 5 and I was just so happy at how efficient and quick it all was that I couldn't stop smiling.

I think I mentioned that I didn't see many large people before I came to Melbourne. I also didn't see so many skinny people before I came here, either. I keep walking past people with protruding ribs, in tops just low enough to display them. In pictures people that thin look different, the screen or the paper flattens them until it just looks like a pattern under their skin. When I see it in the flesh it just looks unpleasant, skin stretched sharply over bones enough that you could hang hooks on them. I always imagine that if you got them wet enough their skin would turn to jelly and you could slide it away from the bones.

I want to write but mostly I want to write about serial killers and I'm not about to write jpop fic about that. I really should have decided to work on the novel for nano but, ahaha, it's too late to start now. No way could I do 50k in 10 days. I did actually write some of the T&T host club AU last night, though it's all expository and I think the whole idea is actually kind of daft.

I believe I planned to write at work today but instead I have, well, actually worked, as well as played at CFUD and read absolutely filthy Kinki Kids fic. Time well spent, as I rather missed playing with Hime and Shinn ♥♥.

Notes to self:
- Need new headphones for the laptop.
- Find pirate book.
- Rewatch YC ep5 for fic purposes.

It makes me so so happy to see icons I made popping up on my flist.

* I have been kind of stressed lately and it's making me crazy but I'm trying to remember that it could be worse, so if I'm weird in IMs that might be why. That and I'm just weird.

* I'm trying ever so hard to finish the tego/pi fic today so I can post it this weekend. It's kind of like pulling teeth. I've only managed 100 words so far today and it's still a total mess. Sigh.

* Much as I think the idea of having a public holiday over a horse race is very silly, I am appreciating not working today.

* An obvious sign that I should have dropped months ago, was nobody caring by the time I did drop.

Also, I don't know why people keep expecting me to app. I haven't done that since January or February and it's entirely possible I never will again.

* I'm strangely tired. I blame all the time I spent today squinting into the sun because, oh yes, my sunglasses broke. They're less than a month old and already one of the lenses fell out. No fair! I hate having to buy new sunglasses all the time lately.

* I rather wish I didn't feel bad for lying to my father on the phone and saying I'm fine. I suppose that he'll be here tomorrow so I can say that I'm not fine but, well, I don't really like talking about my feelings with my father. He never reacts in a way that's remotely comfortable for me to deal with. He's the huggy cry-ey let it all out type and I'm really not.

* I guess I'm happy for people that Jin is back? My only thoughts on the press conference video is that a) it was really boring, b) Nakamaru looks like he's going to go play cricket with the fifth Doctor and c) Ueda wore glasses and looked really hot.

* I rather wish I hadn't given in and finally allowed the Windows Media Player update. It looks crappy and it took me quite a while to figure out where the file menu is. Ugh.

* As amused as I am by JE fanfic sometimes it just leaves me blinking in confusion. As does the creative spelling som J-pop fans employ.

* I swear I had a sixth point but I am too tired to remember what it is. I swear, I'll fall back into fandom and stop being tired and boring all the time any time now.

• ( JE fandom blither )

• I sometimes wish I actually liked more of kat-tun's music because they all seem so cutely dorky in pictures and tv clips. Also, uh, the only song of theirs I like is the one they released after Jin left. And I like them better without Jin. This is hilarious to me because all the KAT-TUN fans worship Jin.

I think this picture (credit boys_paper, resize to teeny by photobucket) is a fab example of so much of what I like about them because they all look happy and smiley and also gayer than the village people and Junno's pants are keeping the disco spirit alive. Lookit how they're laughing, innit cute? Plus, they all actually look like adults and, dude, I find them so much more interesting as grown ups than when they were young. Adults are so much more attractive than teenagers, seriously.

• I was going to complain about having overly complicated fic ideas but I'm actually writing and that's so wonderful right now that it makes me want to cry.

• The previous ongoing temp job fell through but this week I started work as a medical typist at a mental health clinic for children. Very interesting, even if many of the things I have to type up range from terribly sad to utterly horrifying. It's nice, though, 'cause I'm job sharing so I only have to work three days a week. Plus, it's pretty much all typing, which I enjoy, with a small amount of reception relief so I rarely have to answer the phone and I get an office to myself. Yay! Decent pay, too.

• There was that silly argument slowly threading its way in and out of metafandom about whether or not throwing around lots of academic language and nods to their English degrees in meta posts were exclusionary. (Well, no shit they're exclusionary. Also, saying that you don't want to exclude anyone from your posts and following that up by saying you want to have discussions of a certain level = cause of much hilarity. 'I don't want to exclude people except for when I want to exclude them.' ahaha) Anyway, it made me think, it's all fine and well that there's all those meta posts informed by Lit theory but why aren't there more posts with people from other disciplines getting their geek on about the shows they love. I would love more posts by people from science backgrounds talking about the way things work or fail to have any scientific basis in sci-fi shows, more posts talking about staging or lighting, talking about acting, talking about how something compares to the genre historically. Heck, more posts in music fandoms that were deep and thinky about the actual music would be neat stuff.

• Oh, while I remember, I've been adding people to friends with my last.fm account randomly so if you get a friend request from twisjen don't be confused or freaked out or such.

* So, turns out I am the only NewS fan on earth who doesn't find Ryo attractive. Though I'm not sure I really count as NewS fan when I only really like a few songs. Which I play repeatedly, sure.

* I started a new job today as a medical typist. It promises decent pay and everyone there is very nice, plus it seems like it'll be pretty easy once I figure out where everything goes and what forms and standards to conform things to. 90% of it seems to be stuff I've done before, anyway; in fact, most of it is stuff I did back when I worked with Tom (only without the unreasonable demands). Not sure how long it'll go for but it's only three days a week, which shall be nice. No net access, though.

* So, I've seen writing original fiction compared to whoring yourself to the almighty dollar and fanfiction as this pure, safe space full of real artistic integrity. Dude, if origfic = whoring then sign me up.

* I started writing what may or may not be stoopid RPS. This is the first thing I've written at all in ages. I managed only a little but, gah, it feels so good to actually manage anything at all. I may work my way up to more than four sentences tomorrow. Hopefully this is a sign that my writer's block is really actually over. Maybe tomorrow I can take a notebook to work and actually make some progress on the novel.

* Let's see, what birthdays have I missed lately? davelevine, telcontar, dafnap - I hope you guys all had good ones. And anyone else who had a birthday and isn't showing up on the birthdays page, too.

* I have lost all desire to work on my PoT fic. I can't see anyone being too bothered by this. On the other hand, my fingers have been itching to do poetry again and it's been so long since I felt I could do poetry that this is incredibly welcome.

* I am so incredibly neurotic about my icons, esp. the matching sets. Whenever I delete icons I have to delete an even number and select them carefully, now, so I can make sure that all my matching sets stay lined up on the page. And I realised that my Kamen Rider Kabuto icons are no longer matched up and akjregho I have to stop myself from deleting bunches of icons just to fix that. Possibly I should just delete all my icons and start from the beginning again. Except then I would have to take notes of which icons I wanted to keep and which icons had fancy keywords I can't always remember because the keywords are retarded things that amused me at the time.

* I keep getting into really silly series and wanting to ramble incoherently about the representations of masculinity in them and then remembering, wtf, nobody cares.

* Newsletter comms = yes, yes, yes, plz more. Seriously, why is there not a HnG newsletter comm yet?

* I was thinking earlier, omg, I need to balance my fandom life, I can't fit everything in. And then took a moment to pause and be kind of freaked out at myself. The idea that I have to balance my fandom life. Obviously I try to fit too much in but it's fandom and wtf me. Suddenly I understand why people disappear from CFUD completely and why people gafiate for months.

* I wish people on KAT-TUN comms would stop whining about the lack of Jin. Seriously.

* It's embarrassing to have to edit my userinfo for typoes and wonder how many people caught them.

* For so long I forgot what it was like to just laugh out loud, to have a real funny conversation with people and curl over laughing, to smile like this. Isn't that odd?

Okay, I started watching Gokusen II. 'Twas kind of boring at the start of the first episode but then there was Jin and he was hot! And then Yankumi was yelling, which I kind of liked. And then Kame and he was hot, also! And then Yankumi started beating people up and looking really hot while doing it and I decided I liked this show. Not just beating people up but doing it while a roughed up pretty boy looked on from the floor! And then in the second episode she was beating people up while two roughed up pretty boys looked on from the floor! Hot!

So I was like, yes, plz more but by the third episode I was thinking, can we please call a moritorium on Kizuna? Surely we do not need it played in every single episode. I approve of how gay the whole thing is, though.

I also watched episodes three through five of Nobuta wo Produce. Episode 3 got me a little teary, episode 4 got me sniffly and episode 5 actually made me cry. I'm sensing a theme here.

I also finally watched episode six of Ace wo Nerae. Gosh, this show got really heterosexual. I still like Oka's relationships with the other girls the best, especially the one with Ryuuzaki, even if it only got a teensy bit of screen time there. The Ryuuzaki/Midoriwaka opponent conversation was nice and I dig the new spunky girl new girl, think her name was Houriki.

Of all the Tackey & Tsubasa videos I have poured over in the last week I think that this one from November last year is my favourite, even if just because KAT-TUN look ridiculously happy when they come out to backdance. Look at Ueda's smile! Aw! I like KAT-TUN when I'm not listening to their music.

*****

Oh, what a working week it has been. On Wednesday we had the fire alarm ring out twice, both false alarms. It was annoying to have to stop in the middle of something to grab my bag and line up in the hall each time. On Thursday? You guessed it! Fire alarm again, also a false alarm. By that time people were doing the "fancy meeting you here," and "this is the hip, happening hallway," jokes and when the loudspeaker announced it was a false alarm and we could all go back to work the fire wardens were joking, "see you, same time tomorrow." So that put a tiny bit of excitement into my filing.

Oh, so much filing! It took me three hours to get through just the Hs. I guess the Is made up for that by there being few enough to get through in twenty minutes. Some of these documents are from early 2004. All files must be folioed and contain no more than 200 pages, which always makes it fun to discover a file that hasn't been numbered or is numbered incorrectly.

The heat broke today. There was a lovely breeze when I walked the km to work so I didn't even take off my jacket. Of course, on the 10th floor all that meant is that the wind sounded really loud and whiny in the office room they put me in. Oh, they put me in an office! Which is so cool! It has a door and chairs and I'm all alone in there! I don't care if it's just for a temp filing job; it's so cool to have an office.

Also, picked up my favourite pair of work shoes from the shoe repair place and now they're almost better than new. Yay! This is the exciting life I lead.

*****

Happy belated birthday to girliejones and anyone else I missed.

* Love Heroes, love, love, love. Love it so much that I'm watching the channel 7 broadcasts of it as well.

* Spent much of the day tooling around on youtube watching alice nine. videos. Most of which are actually pretty boring. People seem to find Shou in shouta shorts really sexy for some reason I've yet to figure out. Too fluffy and cute to be sexy! Still don't get why most of the RPF is highschool AUs.

* The brother is out on bail and has to appear in court in two days. He didn't tell me much but he did say that he had to get his boss to bail him out because dad hung up on him. That amuses me for some reason.

* Did I mention that my dryer stopped working just when it started getting rainy?

* Gosh, JE fandom is whacked. I find it hilarious, really. Fic where Kame gets fat, ahaha.

Twas looking stuff up and, really, I don't get why anyone would be surprised to discover Johnny is a pervert. Considering the product the company sells I'd be more surprised if he weren't. And, yet, I see people being shocked! Shocked at the very idea.

* The problem with throwing a dinner party for Perth fanpeeps is that a) I've never had a dinner party before and b) I can't actually remember who on my flist is in Perth or even just Australia because I haven't kept my Aus filter up to date for months. Oh, me.

* ETA Also, we got a new player at CFUD who is actually in my city. I am utterly geeked out by this.

* Thunder and lightning, woah! I hope the cat isn't out in that.

* You know, obviously there's a lot of things that annoy me. I mean, I rant often enough and, well, there's a lot of things I wouldn't complain about here even though they drive me nuts because I actually don't want to upset people. Really, though, I'm feeling really good at the moment and I probably wouldn't be if last week hadn't been so stressful. ( state of the TW )

* I hope the dribbly ends of Loveless Week on CFUD are over soon. I hate to be a grouch about it but, ugh, theme weekends are all fine and well but an entire week is rather too long, IMO. My feelings on this are probably compounded by how creeped out I am by Loveless, anyway, and by the fact that after I chucked all that fuss and was reassured that not participating in the theme week wouldn't mean that things would automatically be assumed about characters... things were assumed, anyway.

* Why is there Alice Nine fanfiction? More importantly, why is it all high school AUs? It's very odd.

* I really do need to finish getting through my ficlinks already. It's just that there are so many and it's such a large task that I tend to find it daunting. the_grim_wombat, did you find the Naruto fic links handy at all? I know they're not organised or labelled and there's crap mixed in with the good.

* Icon Post - 19 Alice Nine, 3 Backstreet Boys, 2 Kimeru, 3 Marilyn Manson and 10 Sophie Ellis-Bextor. I really need to post the rest of my icon backlog soon.

* Isn't it strange how when I stop feeling pressured to like something I stop disliking it intensely and come to like parts of it on my own.

* The housing situation is all okay, which is of the good. A little anti-climactic, even. The thing about the house being this clean is that I feel all accomplished and want to keep it this clean. The floor is shiny, even.

* I really rather adore you guys, you know. And much ♥ especially to #cfudtmi.

* There's a brilliant blue and pink sunset outside and I have pizza. Life is beautiful.

* I am so done with my celibacy. Seriously, so over it.

* ETA Seriously, Perth fanpeeps, interested in an ultra casual dinner party at my place next weekend?

1. You dorks. I am absolutely laughing at you but, aw, that's sweet. I was totally going to complain about the lameness of there being a love post when you can just say straight to someone why you like them but then I saw that and changed my mind.

2. How can people call Kame the girly one? Have they not looked at Ueda? Or seen giggly nurse Jin? I mean, what.

...Why am I still looking up kat-tun?

I watched two more of their music videos and Signal was so generically boyband-ish I can barely remember it but, okay, the third? one was pretty and I kind of liked it and I maybe might sort of like the song a little maybe enough that I would actually want to listen to it again. Shut up.

3. I felt like dressing up today before I went into the city so I wore my perty LBD with the mandarin collar and my ultra cute t-bar shoes. Also, the Stussy beret I've had since 1995 but which is still in good nick and looks awesome on me, apparently, or so the weird guy who tried to talk to me in the produce aisle of Woolies seemed to be saying.

I have such great legs, seriously. If I was cloned I would do me. [/end narcissism].

4. Plumber came. Toilet is fixed. Much rejoicing occurred.

5. I love when people are all idolising Japan like it's the best place ever and I'm all, yeah, it's utopia and in no way has huge problems with xenophobia and bullying and a ridiculously high suicide rate.

6. I swear I used to be more politically motivated. It's like the more I get my life together (...yes, let us all pause to laugh at that statement when I may or may not be thrown out of home tomorrow) the less I can muster up the energy to give a shit about the mess of Australian politics.

7. If I don't get thrown out I'm going to go out this weekend and be actually, gasp, social. And then I will throw a dinner party. And maybe at some point in the next month I will go on a date for the first time in a really long time. Or not, because I actually don't like dating (ahaha, everyone else in long term relationships is all, oh, I want the thrill of dating back, whereas I'm all, wow, dating is so boring, can't I just skip this shit and get to the relationship part?).

8. hyatt_ayanami's latest picture post is terribly cute. I'm not just saying that because Gakuto/Hiyoshi is my favourite pairing.

9. As of late Kenken has looked attractive in a higher proportion of mag shoots than previously. Before there'd be pictures where he'd be smiling and kind of pretty and then pictures where he'd look really crap and kind of ugly and munted. Now, he is actually hot when he tries to look serious and hot. I approve.

* Have spent hours looking at pictures of barely legal talentless Japanese pop singers dolled up like expensive and horribly underfed prostitutes. Time well spent, I must say.

* Also, did a bunch of cleaning. And there's so much left to do, ahaha, fuck. I am determined to fix this house up because homelessness is just not an option I am willing to consider at all. (Of course my father came by to change the conditions by adding that I have to clean out my brother's room and help him pack because dad is throwing him out anyway. Shall be difficult because Alex's room is disgusting.)

* I really appreciate Kimeru's efforts to out-gay Elton John. He's not there yet but he'll make it if he keeps trying.

* Anyone know what happened to evaporate?

* Am contemplating deleting almost all my tenipuri icons and replacing them with music icons. I mean, do I really need 30 PoT icons?

* This makes me think of Prince of Tennis and this makes me think of almost every other Japanese series I've ever followed.

* I have so much energy! Somehow, it's like working hard for 8 hour days woke up my body. I feel like I could stay awake for ages, like I could get so much done. It's fabulous.

* Just before I left the guy I was reporting to at the filing job said, "You're the best person we've had for a while. No, I think you're the best person at this we've ever had." OMG that made me feel awesome to hear. Even if it's only filing!

* Tezuka/Fuji, set at some unspecified future date, and I dedicate this to mari_yagami because I ♥ her muchly (it's what we talked about, and it's not quite how I wanted, but it'll do), ( Read more... )

* Ah, man, I dig you guys. ♥ Even when you're passive aggressive little shits. Even when you're just plain take no prisoners nasty. You're my kind of bitches. I wouldn't keep you on my friendslist otherwise. I mean, come on, I read it once or twice a day - if you really pissed me off I'd just remove you to avoid the aggravation.

Seriously, sometimes I want to talk about how much I adore everyone on my f-list and why! It's a good thing I don't, though, because I'm kind of scary.

* I always laugh when I see people throwing around the 'just like those mean girls in high school' thing. I mean, the idea that people would ever grow out of being mean or cliquish! I find this hysterically funny.

* I actually got to sit down for two hours of work today. It was awesome!

* I have new shoes! $50 and they cramp my feet horribly and probably make them look too wide. I don't care! They're cute!

* It feels weird to not be antisocial in fandom. I mean, it's not that I've never been social in fandom - I interacted with a lot of people in SV and I've made real friends in various fandoms and whatnot. I was, however, fairly distant and detached in a lot of the fandoms I went through in the last few years. I didn't talk to people much and pretty much just did my own thing and that was fine. This is fine, too. It just feels weird actually making the effort to talk to lots of people every day. I'm not used to it, yet.

(See, I say this like I haven't hung out in CFUD IRC for over a year. But that's different. I mean, I don't think of that as a fandom, it's its own crack universe and, I don't know, it's just different. Probably because I already accept that people there find me overbearing and annoying much of the time and they're all silly, too, so it's less important if someone gets pissed off because I'm opinionated and just don't shut up sometimes.)

* Ha! Adblocker is the best thing ever because now when people post ridiculously large (and probably unsightly) images outside a cut tag and fuck up the formatting on my f-list I can just adblock that fucker and, ooh, problem solvered!

* Oh, look, the paranoia meme is going around again. It never dies! Rest assured that I will never do this meme because if I wanted to say something nasty about you I'd want you to be sure it was about you.

* S-so much fic on my flist omg I can't read it all but glee!!!!!

* I worked today! Yay! Temping til the end of the week in a pretty government building, filing things. Vertical filing with one of those collapsey file cabinets that look like they want to crush you to death, too. I was one my feet all day in falling apart shoes and, ow, my legs hurt. My feet hurt like burning when I got home but they're okay now.

* Because I am tired and sore and had not nearly enough caffeine today (ow my head) and my childhood idol was Oscar the Grouch, random opinions and thoughts ( I don't care if they're popular or not )

* I'd read a bit of early Boys Over Flowers a while ago and liked it, thought about reading some more of it later. I even contemplated buying it at some point. I found Hana Yori Dango scanlations yesterday and read them all and, wow, I'm so glad I didn't buy any volumes. I mean, I liked that thing it had going with the strong, angry girl who tried her hardest and didn't take crap from people and was fighting a bunch of boys and having amusing romantic mishaps. By volume 20 it had completely become the dreary love story of two people who make each other miserable. I spent the rest of the series wishing they'd break up and stay broken up. Instead, it just got more melodramatic and their relationship even more tedious to read. Ugh.

* I actually opened Google Docs and started working on HSC3. I've written three whole sentences! This is amazing! Be in awe of my ability to write a very small paragraph!

* I have made a small dent into the housecleaning. On the one hand, I feel accomplished for having cleaned the bathroom sink until it glowed. On the other, ugh, still so much to do.

* I spent two hours looking for my copy of Alone in my King's Harem yesterday and could not find it anywhere. I looked in every place in the house I thought books might possibly be hiding, including through washing baskets and behind my futon. I found so many books I hadn't seen for ages but did I find the one I wanted? Of course not!

* I don't know why it's amusing me so much to write a Gakuto that thinks he's straight.

* I spent the last two days just constantly looking at pretty shiny doujinshi that I cannot afford. So much shiny! I want! So it's a good thing I don't have a credit card and don't have much money in my paypal account because, seriously, I do not need to be sending myself broke over shiny pretty things in a language I can't read, even if I saw a Nase/Iijima dj and ooh lots of pretty shiny Ogata/Akira and this one Hikaru/Akari with a gorgeous cover and so many Eiji/Fuji pretties and shiny Death Note stuff and...

* Dad came by the house and said that he was kicking us out if we didn't have the house drastically cleaned and fixed up by then. So, I had my emo panic moment of 'omg, i'm going to be homeless in two weeks' but even if I have to go without sleep to get this fucking house perfect by then and have to get people in to fix the broken door pane and whatnot I am going to fix it. No way I'm leaving. I cannot fucking afford to move anywhere, anyway, and don't actually have anywhere else to go, especially on such short notice. I don't really know where to start, though. There's so much to do.

* Even with harassing my consultant at the temp agency it is now two months since I've gotten work. Which sucks.

* ...The early processes of cleaning have led me to discover my brother's habit of bringing in mail and hiding it behind and under things. To that end, I discovered the stuff Ros sent me! Yay, I have the single it's so shiny and pretty and the card ♥♥♥ and the bookmark thingies and, ooh, pretty purple reindeers. I have much ♥ for you, sugar plum!

* ETA ( ahaha wtf this quiz )

TV watching I've done in the past few days:

Heroes 14: HELL YES! AHAHA That was masterful. I don't care if it's wrong that I'm insanely gleeful about the end and what it's going to do to the "Paire" shippers. Win! ( Read more... )

Kamen Rider Kabuto 37-39: I love when the show makes fun of Tendou. ( Read more... )

Ace wo Nerae 1-3: Ooh, I like. It's very pretty and full of people that are quite pleasant looking, which shocks me as most Japanese people are not. Also, it's kind of gay. I'd be a bit gay for Ryuuzaki if I was Oka, too, so I approve. I liked the tennis! Especially in the third episode! And the thing with the rackets! That was shiny! And the clothes! Previously I had considered tracksuit pants the least attractive piece of clothing ever invented but I may have to revise that opinion.

Possibly it's not shocking anyone to find me enjoying a show with pretty girls in short skirts playing sport.

ETA I have now watched episode 4 and, wow, doubles really is tennis speak for gay. Though I see can see oncoming het and blergh.

*****

* Went in to see my consultant at the temp agency this morning so I should get some work soon. A lot of the jobs she's been getting in lately require cars, unfortunately, but I should be able to get something within the week. Also, she got a really cute haircut.

* And now my washing machine doesn't even wash clothes properly. Really, that's great. I suppose I shall just have to find a convenient laundromat.

* Fuck. I just got a reminder notice for an overdue water bill. Of course, I never got the first water bill. It's $369.45. The likelihood of my brother giving me any money toward it = slim to none. Fuck. I have to talk to my father about this as account is in his name and, ugh, I do not like talking to my father.

* I don't get why so much Atobe/Tezuka fic is established relationship fic. I mean, I have nothing against est. rel. fic when the pairing are in a romantic relationship in canon but, uh, not getting why there's so much for crazy tennis boys.

* Heroes 13 was shiny, but not as much as previous episodes. On the one hand, Mohinder ♥ such hotness and win. On the other hand, ew, Christopher Eccleston is so ugly and his character seems really lame.

* Sometimes a lot of really annoying people will ship a pairing and will write really bad OOC fic about it and that puts me off ever possibly giving that pairing a chance... and I feel really bad about it. Like, it's not the fault of the pairing that so many people that ship it are annoying pains in the arse who wouldn't know IC fic if it molested them in a dark alley. And then I remember that I don't have an obligation to give every possible pairing out there an equal chance, especially if I really don't like the fic.

* Icon posts - 29 Ever After, 3 Drew Barrymore, 16 Austin Powers, 11 Heather Graham and 34 Prince of Tennis (mostly OVA images).

* Net speeds have gone back up again. Woot! Now I have to download 90bajillion things.

* Boys are icky!

* Shock result of my cooking proper meals instead of just microwave meals is that I feel a little more energetic and I think I've losted a teensy bit of weight. That and the itty bit of exercise I've been doing have given me surprise muscle definition. I have actual abs. Who knew?

* So much cute squishy PoT merchandise that I am only able to resist by not having a credit card.

* Happy birthday to dimmie.

* Why is most Yuushi/Gakuto fic so angsty? I wouldn't have thought there was anything inherently angsty about the pairing and yet so much of the fic is about pain and sadness and woe. There is a story where Gakuto cries over cake. Why can't people write them as friends who fuck? And don't have endless angst and aren't secretly porn stars.

For that matter, I want more Atobe/Tezuka were Atobe doesn't have to do all the changing while Tezuka remains emotionally untouchable. And more Ato/Tez where Tezuka doesn't disapprove of everything that Atobe says, does and is, because, really, I don't find the idea of Tezuka treating Atobe like pondscum while Atobe practically humiliates himself for Tezuka particularly appealing.

* The other day I saw someone I knew in highschool when I was leaving the supermarket. It was kind of weird. She recognised me (because I never recognise people first) and said hi and told me who she was and I was like, "Yes! I remember! Wow!" She looked really good. She asked what I'd been doing with myself since highschool and I had the panic moment of, omg, I don't want people to know. But, you know, I said that I was temping and enjoying the single life, bla bla bla. I felt all self-conscious about how I looked because she looked so great and I wasn't wearing make-up and my hair was just in a plait - but then I realised, once I got home, that even my casual clothes aren't really all that casual. I mean, I was wearing the lovely wrap-top I like wearing for work, the knee-length skirt that makes me look curvy and my favourite pair of knee-high boots. And I'm healthy and fit and all the weight I've put on since highschool has gone straight to my boobs, so I shouldn't really worry.

* My reaction to this is still Ew! Nothing like a spot of hate for your own gender, hmm? Just love that undertone of 'Girls would be great if they didn't grow up into women.' So skeevy. Nothing makes me more glad to have watched and enjoyed and identified with Sex and the City than comments like that.

* There was a post on metafandom the other day that talked about slash like it was in the fannish ghetto and not, you know, completely mainstream or the dominant force in some fandoms. And talking about how they wanted to call it gen for some mystical respect or something or because everyone clearly reads genfic (even though most people really don't) and talking about pairingfic that has a non-romance plot as if it's some new and entirely unheard of thing rather than something there is great amounts of and has been since dinosaurs roamed fandom. Which just makes me want to roll my eyes, really. It's not news that plenty of pairingfic isn't romance or porn! It certainly wasn't news when I first found net fandom six and a half years ago.

* I watched D.O.A. the other day. When it ended my brother said that it was short and crap, but it was entertainingly short and crap and that is all that matters. Good looking women in sexy outfits fighting each other = easily pleased me.

* Internet troubles continue. It keeps doing the thing where it will stop being connected to the internet for however long, especially in the afternoons. Sometimes it will cut out multiple times in five minutes. Sometimes it just won't work at all for half an hour. For most of today it was going so slow it felt like it'd have to speed up to stop. This is supposed to be a broadband connection.

So, yeah, Telstra Big Pond suck and their customer service is almost nonexistant. I really wish we weren't locked into a contract or that Alex had actually looked harder at the broadband options before he went for Telstra, but, oh well.

This is just making it really hard to do CFUD stuff and I can hardly ever download anything. Ugh.

* I managed to keep my grocery shopping to just under $25 today! Go me! This may even mean I won't spend more than $50 on groceries this week. I'm trying this new thing where I'm actually cooking every night, even though I don't like my own cooking (microwave meals were better) because, really, I am practically bleeding money at the moment and at least if I eat leftovers every second night and things with actual meat I won't be as hungry all the time. I've been buying healthier food, too, because it seems to be on special a lot at the moment.

* Much in the way of dropping at campfuckudie the last two days. Sadness! But what must be must be. I can't claim I haven't contemplated dropping many times over the last half year or so, so I do understand.

Apps are really soon, too, and have I worked on my app at all? That's a no. I tried to write it in French, for some reason, even though my French is so limited and rusty that there's very little I could write in it. Sadly, that didn't actually make writing the app any harder.

* ( aborted ficlet of a thing )

*Cleo tells me that the perfect summer diet involves not eating almost anything that makes up real food. And the magazine adds that you shouldn't worry if following the diet gives headaches, stomach pain, nausea, fatigue or even mild palpitations. And then it follows up that any of those symptoms just mean you really need the diet. I love women's magazines. They're full of the worst advice ever.

* ahaha, god, RP drama is like the stupidest drama, ever. And that is all I will say about that.

* I need the agency to give me a job soon. The savings have dipped back under two thou again, which is not of the good, as before Christmas and bills my account was up to $2,700. It really doesn't help that Alex is just not paying for anything. Or that when he does decide he'll go "grocery shopping" he'll come home with a loaf of bread, cordial and two packs of marshmallows.

*I hope yzak had a happy birthday on the 18th and mari_yagami has a good one today.

*I'm not sure what the point of my brother paying me that money was if he was just going to steal it from my wallet a few days later. Oh, well.

*I love when trashy gossip mags talk about best celeb slim downs and half the actresses look better in the before pictures.

*I am slowly but steadily making my way through my to-feedback links and writing recs for when I eventually someday update my site. I've got 15 Hikago stories and 14 tenipuri stories in my recs file! So it may be finished someday soon! But probably not this month, considering I still have 104 PoT ficlinks and ficlinks in 21 other fandoms to go through.

*I love talking about series in IRC and judging them on whether they're too het for Eda. ♥

*I hope sub_divided had a good birthday on the 13th and anenko has a good one today.

*I like heat and all but the crazy weather is making my precious laptop all whiny and I feel all sticky and gross.

*Apparently I read more fanfic and discussion posts than anyone sane or normal.